Everything, for Diana

Hey Stylists. Thank you so much for being here : )

It’s been a few months since I’ve posted on the blog, but the time I had away was much needed. Like I always say – time is the most expensive thing we have.

Today and every single day moving forward, everything I do from this moment on, is for Diana.

On June 11, I lost my beautiful, funny, smart and loving Mother. Losing my mom has been the most painful heartbreak I’ve ever felt. She was my best friend. We talked everyday, and used to send each other endless text messages. Omg, she loved sending me funny videos on Whatsapp lol. She was just the funniest woman I’ve ever met, and she always lit up the room when she walked in. Diana was the one person in my life who made me feel important. Special. Seen. Heard. Loved. I truly was my mother’s daughter! She always supported my dreams, and she always had my back. When I tell you – my mom would move mountains for me in a second, I truly mean it. If I was in trouble or needed advice, she stopped what she was doing and was there by my side. My mom was always there for me, and I miss her beautiful soul every second of every day.

Although the pain is at times unbearable, I know that I have to do my best to keep moving. I allow myself to move at my own pace, and I listen to my body. I listen to my mind, and I make sure that I let myself go through the pain. The sadness. The anger. The hurt, and the confusion. There is no timeline for how and when we grieve. Grief is a process that is different for everyone. And so through the tears, and sometimes sleepless nights, I wake up every morning with Diana in my heart and on my mind. I know my Mom would want me to get up, and continue to follow my dreams. Diana wouldn’t want it any other way.

Now more than ever is the time for me to pick myself up, and keep pushing myself to be great. It’s not just for myself anymore, but it’s also for my mom. I truly believe my mom is my guardian angel, and that every blessing I receive, is pouring down from her. Diana was my biggest cheerleader! She shared my blog and YouTube Channel with all her friends and family. I just laugh when I think about it. She would call me and be like, “Fina! I just sent your YouTube link to my homies.” Lol….she was the funniest.

The first fashion look you see is of course, inspired by my Mom. I’m wearing her Michelle Obama purse. Yall, she loved this bag lol. She was definitely a fashionista – just like me. The boots are from Steve Madden, and my Whitney Houston t-shirt is from Target. 

 

The second look is something Diana would wear to a party. I styled her blazer jacket with her long silver necklace, clutch purse, and of course, her wedding rings. I think she would approve of this look, right? My mom loved to dress in style, and both had similar taste.  I really love wearing my Mom’s pieces though. In a way it makes me feel closer to her. 

Photography by: @tdsgphotography

 

Mom, my best friend and my forever love, this post is dedicated to you. Thank you for being an amazing MOTHER. I couldn’t have asked for a better Mom. You will continue to be my number one inspiration. I’m so grateful you spent your last Christmas with me. Just the two of us. We had so much fun! Time is so expensive, and I thank God we shared everyday together, and that I got TIME with you. Mom, you were loved by so many people. Soooo many people. Everyone always talked about your bright smile, your signature red lipstick, and your contagious, funny laugh. And let’s not forget your dancing. You sure knew how to have a good time and throw a party. I will forever dance and celebrate you Mom. You will never, ever be forgotten. I know you’re here with me, and I know I will see you again. Diana….everything is for you! I LOVE YOU MOM!!

Thank you for reading, and thank you to every single person who has been there for me during this hard time. All of the beautiful texts, calls and sweet cards. You are greatly appreciated, and I could not have gotten through this time without all of you. Sending you so much love.